because of you ;
5:32 AM
because of you ;
because i appear stone hard on the outside
because i always seem so cold and indifferent
because i seem ever so secure
because i let you break into me
because i let you run away
because i feel like the ones who matter don't care
because i am insecure
because i don't know what to say
because i don't know how to say no like yes
because i don't know how to scream for help
because i don't know to to escape death
because i keep everything to myself
because i bottle all my emotions up
because i know of everyone's expectations of me
because i am aware of my boundaries
because i don't know who to tell
because i don't know who will listen
because i don't know who will help
because i don't know who actually bothers
because i feel like sleeping and putting off everything
because i bathe in the shower with my tears
because i don't know how to show my fears
because i am so misunderstood
you blog, knowing people will read. you blog, wanting people to read. you blog, thinking of what people should read. you blog, wanting to seek attention without going face to face. you blog, knowing that there is no privacy, no real sense of yourself, no true emotions. you blog, just wanting your readership to go up. you blog, trying to be someone else. you blog, trying to entertain. you blog, trying to entertain. you blog, trying too hard.
therefore you blog what you WANT others to know. and pray they will think the way you want them to. you blog because you are pathetic
you are too afraid to say no. you are too afraid to explain. you are too afraid to show how you feel and what you think. you are too afraid such that your opinions shake and differ. you are too afraid of offending somebody. you are too afraid of getting into trouble.
therefore you are too afraid to let the truth surface
and for these absolute reasons i am closing this blog down.
and never blogging again.
5:16 AM
because of you ;
English Language
Yuling is vocal and by moderating her tone, she can be more persuasive
okay. whatever you say. i am vocal? as an english teacher, your descriptive writing sucks. loud more like it
Mathematics
Yuling needs to engage herself more actively in the learning process in order to reach mastery. She must take steps to seek clarifications when in doubt
i'm really sorry for sleeping during math class. it's like really inevitable. or maybe i lack the discipline. to me, it's the former. and i am sorry.
Geography
Yuling is forthright with her ideas. Her presence enlivens class discussion.
yay! finally a really genuine positive comment that is definitely not a template. i am so straightforward and it has its uses! and i actually enliven twosix! how cool. hahaha. must be due to the okay geog grades and my choice of subj combi
History
Yuling is a lively student and has a cheerful disposition. She is highly perspective and is capable of thinking critically.
see? how can anyone not like mr mizar?
English Literature
Yuling possesses a competent grasp of literary concepts. There is evidence of conscientiousness in her work, which is often thorough, and she has also demonstrated the ability to do close reading.
i love mrs yue. but this is really a template. but cut her some slack. afterall, she teaches so many classes and only over such a short period of time. what else do you want?
Lower Secondary Science
Yuling has an understanding of basic concepts but needs to engage herself more actively to improve further
i flunk science. shit. and i swear i don't engage actively. maybe because i am sleeping?
Higher Chinese
Yuling is a cheerful and pleasant student. She is always responsive during group discussions and does not hesitate to voice her thoughts confidently
i knew mrs poon LOVES me. and i love her too. responsive during class discussions? well, talking crap is always easy. and i am like SO confidently, if not rude and heck care. i love mrs poon. i will miss her.
Philosophy
Yuling is vocal and has confidence in her viewpoints.
like whatever, loser. guess the teacher. no prizes.
6:17 AM
because of you ;
Craig David : Don't Love You No More [ I'm Sorry ]For all the years that I’ve known you baby
blogging is seriously boring. bye.
I can’t figure out the reason why lately
you’ve been acting so cold (didn’t you say)
if there’s a problem we should work it out
so why you giving me the cold shoulder now
like you don’t want to talk to me girl (tell me)
okay I know I was late again
I made you mad and dinners thrown in (the bin)
but why you making this thing drag on so long (I wanna know)
I’m sick and tired of this silly game
don’t think that I’m the only one here to blame
it’s not me who’s been going round slamming doors
That’s when you turned and said to me
I don’t care babe who’s right or wrong
I just don’t love you no more
Rain outside my window pouring down
what now, you’re gone, my fault, I’m sorry
feeling like a fool cos I let you down
now it’s too late to turn it around
I’m sorry for the tears I’ve made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
you made it clear when you said
I just don’t love you no more
I know that I’ve made a few mistakes
but never thought things would turn out this way
doesn’t make sense to me now that you’re gone (I see it all so clearly)
me at the door with you in a state
giving my reasons but as you look away
I can see a tear roll down your face
That’s when you turned and said to me
I don’t care babe who’s right or wrong
I just don’t love you no more
Rain outside my window pouring down
what now, you’re gone, my fault, I’m sorry
feeling like a fool cos I let you down
now it’s too late to turn it around
I’m sorry for the tears I’ve made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
you made it clear when you said
I just don’t love you no more
Those simple words hit so hard
they turned my whole world upside down
girl you caught me completely off guard
on that night you said to me
I just don’t love you no more
Rain outside my window pouring down
what now, you’re gone, my fault, I’m sorry
feeling like a fool cos I let you down
now it’s too late to turn it around
I’m sorry for the tears I’ve made you cry
I guess this time it really is goodbye
You made it clear when you said
I just don’t love you no more
i am seriously bored. today is drama night 2005. which means, technically, it's the last day where the twosixers will stay together. which means we will seriously split up really soon.
which means i am once again afraid. afraid of getting a sickening class. afraid of not being able to get my combi. seriously, im afraid.
10:29 PM
because of you ;
okay.
GPAs this semester. note the RELUCTANCE to include the entire's year
geog : 4.0
english : 3.6
science : 3.6
chinese : 3.6
lit : 3.6
math : 3.2
history : 2.8 [WHAT THE HELL. HUH? HUH? HUH?! from 3.6 DOINK DOINK DOINK. wow.]
okay. some people should learn not to rub it in. thank you. i don't care lah. grades do NOT validate me.
i like daniel wu! he's like so freaking. erm. i dunno.
shit! i miss you.
number 11. best number ever
okay. another KOK entry today okay? another list then. because im bored
10 things that tell you you are a man [or turning into one, or wished you were one].
1. you look at the long-sleeve Billabong tees and immediately want them. the same will take place at Esprit, and everywhere else. one thing. they are all for the MALES.
2. you BREATHE, LIVE and DIE for soccer. liverpool glues you to the screen. even without michael owen
3. saluting is your new way of saying goodbye
4. michael owen becomes the one you want to emulate. note, not worship, not crush. EMULATE
5. you want to be in ri. so you can prove that rafflesians aren't losers. not with you in there. :)
6. people agree you look like a man, if you insist
7. you blame your dad's lack of strong y-chromosomes.
8. you write really good love poems. all dedicated to women
9. you want to play electric guitar. and the GOTH kind.
10. you let everyone on the bus get off first. because you are a gentleman.
I AM A MAN!
6:26 AM
because of you ;
ninny bitch
what's your problem man?
why can you pick on every single thing
i can't stand you
neither can the rest
can't you see?
you are nothing but a fake
we all know better
but why do we adhere
because your unreasonable ways
will only sink deeper if we don't
but it's okay. it's all gonna be over
yay. netball carn tmr. and i still can defend. how?
i don't hate you
i don't dislike you
i don't even think im pissed
i just can't understand why
so please let me know
7:38 AM
because of you ;
pretty cool. inside this function room they booked from their condo
coolio.
water-gunned everybody. damn fun. beat the boys at lf2. but of course. i typed in the cheat code. hahahaha
yeah. quite a few pretty cute boys. you know. short and cute and smiley.
some jerk asses freak shit too.
but of course. act attitude. craziness. i AM attitude.
spent the whole day lying on the chair by the pool
reading the bible.
yeah. the bible. in chinese somemore.
thank you. i know im so damn knowledgeable
7:56 AM
rafflesians ;
onesix'04
alice
alicia
amanda
beihan
chelsea
elizabeth
fiona
genevieve
hongchuan
isabelle
joohui
kristen
limjie
melteo
mingyue
peiqi
rachael
shara
shiaoyen
shuna
sixuan
suyin
valerie
wanqi
wanxiu
xiner
yannie
yashan
yityng
yixin
yuwen
zhixin
zhixian
northlanders ;
6AB'03
edward
halim
jay
junzhu
kahyee
meiqin
meiying
samantha
stella
others ;
alex
donovan
huishan
jacqueline
jonathan
matthew
nicholas
zhihao
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